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...isn't all that different from High School.

At least for now.

You still have all the little groups, the unwilling people, the unapprochables.

I wonder if I can break out of this High School mold.



Friends, I wonder where they are.
Are they nearby?

Love,
                                                        Ah, that unattainable emotion,
                                                                            Won't even go near it?
                                                                        When will it happen?

Hopefully all will be better.


I miss my HS days and friends.
                                           

So, tomorrow is graduation, and I'm sad to see it all go.
11 years, 6 years, 4 years...those will be nothing but numbers after tomorrow.

On a better note, post senior banquet was so much fun.
Bowling, Taco Bell and Burger King at 2 am, trying to go through the drive thru with an imaginary car, chicken fights in the parking lot, dancing idiotically...

Prom was amazingly fun (though I wish afterprom was much more eventful, but I'll still take it :D )
Special thanks to my date (yes, I actually got one!) for being such a trooper.
Kung Fu Panda at a shady theater. Rock Band, Brawl, Pool.
Enough said.


The amending thing...I seemed to have gotten over it. 
I hope it's real.


The only thing left to do is to look towards the future and hope for a rise of a phoenix.

Maybe the next four years will be so much fun.
Maybe the next four years will suck so much.
Maybe the next four years will be so damn hard.
Maybe the next four years will make me emo.
Maybe the next four years will make me skinnier.
Maybe the next four years will make me fatter.
Maybe the next four years will make me bolder.
Maybe the next four years will let me get a boyfriend.
Maybe the next four years will make me a loser.
Maybe the next four years will make me shyer.
Maybe the next four years will decide my future.
Maybe the next four years won't be all in California.

Maybe, just maybe, the next four years will mold me into someone who I really want to be.

I hope we keep in touch.

Well, here ends (unofficially) my high school career.
It still hasn't hit yet, but I know that I'll be crying my eyes out the day of graduation.

There has been so many ups and downs...

I tried to make the last amends.
Guess that didn't work.

So, I'm officially legal.
Actually, to be more accurate, I still have 2 more hours...

Anyway, time to procrastinate (ie. not do my hw AT ALL) and reflect on what's been happening.

I got my ears pierced Sunday (woot woot), but it still hurts like a BIZZNATCH.
This guy and I don't really talk anymore (which is kinda sad)--maybe I was the one who started all that anyway. Who knows.
I still need a prom date.

Yea...that's pretty much it for now.
Wow, what a crappy 18th.

Hopefully the rest of the day will be better.
Keyword is HOPEFULLY, mind you.

So, I'm finally a 2nd Semester senior (actually, this is a bit late...)
And I guess I feel more relaxed, you could say.
France was a blast...I kinda wish I was back there rather than here, in the cold.
I reaaaaally miss the awesome food. And the cleanliness in general.
The end of the school year is coming up, and sadly enough I still don't have a prom date. *sigh*
My mom keeps pestering me about that, which I think is kinda weird O.o

Well, whatever.
In any case, I'll go solo if I have to.
Psh.

I hate SAT iis.
UGH STUPID MATH IIC.
Then again...who was the one that didn't study even though she knew she had this test coming up?

-____________-''

School officially bores me.
Classes are okay, and I actually have free time!
(which should be used to do apps...)
I still need to solidify my list of colleges and whatnot

aaaaaannndddd

I (really) need to start my apps.

BC calc hates me almost as much as I hate it.

I really miss summer---it passed by like a breeze and took me by surprise.
Now it's just a dream that I can never revisit
or grasp...
its evasion annoys me
but at the same time pains me.

Late nights in the Atrium,
"Studying" for finals,
Belting Korean love songs,
Cooking spontaneously in the crappy Granada lounge/teh awesome Euc lounge,
Missing CalTrains,
Biking/running x amount of miles to the movie theater just to see Transformers,
Going to San Francisco,
Sneaking out and eating awesome Korean food,
Sneaking out and getting lost somewhere for a good 2 hours,
Six Flags,
Star gazing & meteor showers,
Sleeping in other people's rooms...

Although semi-amnesia has hit me,
I'll always remember that this summer has impacted me in ways I may never know.

</3 palm tree virginity

I can't believe that in two weeks I won't be able to see these people again.
It's quite depressing...
almost.

I didn't think that I would have this much fun.

Yesterday was sunny.
Today is sunny.
Tomorrow will be sunny.

I can't believe that I'm halfway through the Stanford program :(
I'll miss these friends dearly.